Are my eyes glossed over...am I only feeling and not seeing
Am I dreaming again...
Once I knew the difference between the dream and ugly reality...I let myself dream anyway
Am I dreaming again...
Do I rub my eyes and shake the illusion from my head or is it something else this time...has the universe transpired in my favor or...
Am I dreaming again...
How can it be a dream when it feels so real and so right...how can I let myself fall into the pit again without a fight...
Am I dreaming again?
Monday, May 18, 2015
"Some think we are here in this life to work, sleep, watch tv and do what we can to get through the day sanely...but others know they are here for so much more and therefore tune out the petty stuff and get right to spreadin' the love." ~Lori MarieSo tell me how your last few days went. No wait, let me guess. You woke up, took a shower, rushed out the door to work, forgot to eat, growled at the cars in traffic, arrived to work irritated, got on the phones and made other peoples day just as irritated, ate lunch from a vending machine at your desk, had customers scream at you all day, stopped at McDonald's on your way home and ate way more than you anticipate, laid on the couch drained, texted friends, went on facebook, and fell asleep watching a netflix series...only to wake up and do it all over again. Oh no? You have kids....so the scenario is slightly altered being you had added responsibilities in there and they lost out on things too....all while showing your child by example how to live their life...they are only our future. You paid your bills, you spent too much on things you don't need, you went out and partied too hard and wasted your money to only have a headache, and you got in fights with anyone who crossed you. Wow, life must be really meaningful for you....but its all you know.
I am not going to sit here and judge those who can relate to the lives I have described above...that would be shallow and heartless. Instead I am going to take the time to hopefully enlighten you and help you realize that there is much more to life then why Kylie Jenner suddenly has fat lips or if you bought the latest fashion trends. Maybe you are one of those people who gets into relationship after relationship and can never seem to make it work yet don't know how to be alone. Can you take a few seconds and allow yourself to look below the surface and tell me if you truly believe that the meaning of life is who you are married to or how much money you have in the bank? Does the meaning of life have anything to do with the youtube videos and facebook posts you have been reading all day? Do you think you are truly here to make money, go on vacations, and be so wealthy you have nothing to worry about? Can you tell me then what is the meaning of life?
Not a single thing listed above that is for sure. If life is all about getting high or drunk, finding ways to escape reality, and being so wealthy we have nothing to worry about then way are we even here....all we are trying to do is escape here and find a better here. When you want something outside yourself it is because you don't like what is inside yourself and if you don't like whats inside yourself then why are you even here? Why live? Why go on? There is no point there is only pain. Oh wait you don't want the pain....so you escape it instead of fixing the problem. The problem is you don't understand the the meaning of life is merely loving yourself. We are here to learn to love ourselves and then shine so bright that the love spills over and others feel the love too! Sometimes the love is so great it is a ripple effect and others begin to realize what they have been missing and begin to understand what love is.
I don't know about you but I believe that the meaning of my life is to understand what love is, find it within me, and then love every little thing about life...the good, the bad, and the ugly....because it is all a part of me. You are a part of me...I may not think your choices are meaningful in my opinion but I can still share the light with you! What ever your mission in life is it will all boil down to one common thing....LOVE.
So turn off the tv, eat a healthy breakfast, sing a song on the way to work, hold the door and smile at someone even if they made you angry the day before, and end your day staring up into the stars and breathing in the beauty of our existence. It doesn't take much to make each moment of our lives count. Love yourself and you will be able to love others.
So now tell me...what is the meaning of life?
Sunday, April 26, 2015
The other day I read an article of a local woman who was walking along the canal with her two small children in a stroller when suddenly a swarm of bees came at her and in hope to protect her children they all fell into the canal. Unfortunately because the children were strapped into the stroller they both drown while the mother lived. In reality this is an emotionally horrific accident to have to continue on in life and live with so why did it happen? Honestly that is one question we will never know the answer to but as humans we ask ourselves how do these horrific things happen and why. Trying to look at these types of incidences from more than one perspective is the only way some of us are able to accept the incident. One perspective could be karmic. In this life the woman is the perfect citizen, wife, and mother but for some reason she is to live the rest of her life with the guilt that she was partially why her children died. In a past or parallel life it could merely be this life's way of balancing things out. It doesn't make it any easier to swallow but in order for the chain of karma to end this lady needs to reach deep inside herself and let it go and forgive herself. She needs to understand the meaning of compassion and apply it to her situation. If she can not do this in the course of this lifetime she is destined to repeat the pattern in one way shape or form again creating the same pain and the same dilemma.
Another perspective is it needed to happen in order to bring awareness to what true compassion is. With yin and yang you need the darkness to shed light on truth. We have a great opportunity in this life to reach our ultimate goal which is always the same for everyone on some level and that is love. The woman who experienced this horrible tragedy has the perfect opportunity to become enlightened and share that love and enlightenment on this harsh and judgmental world we live in. Through understanding and forgiveness she can release some much needed love into the world and help move our ascending planet right where it needs to be in the evolutionary process to peace and love. This is only one incident but I am referring to all horrific acts, incidents, and situations. We have to accept them and appreciate them for their value then release the pain of the incident and let it go. If we continue to live without forgiveness and the ability to move on during tragedy we are destined to live in a world of pain for what will feel like eternity. It does not have to be this way. We are living in a time where the energies coming to our planet are accelerated and the sooner we begin to understand this concept and embody it we the sooner we will evolve to another level of understanding. It is vital for our civilization, planet, and universe that we embrace, embody, and become compassion. In the face of the most horrific tragedy we need to spread compassion with the deep awareness of the suffering without the need to relieve it and feel total appreciation for it's value through being in a state of non-judgment.
If you can at least grasp the concept you are shifting and this is one step closer. If you are rebelling against it it has still became a part of your consciousness and that too is important towards shifting. One day our world will be compassion right now you just need to begin to hear about what compassion really means.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Its become common knowledge that you can not have one without the other. Opposites are needed in order to have definition of one another. If the world was all light and one big utopia there would be no need to exist, and it would be impossible to have only evil unless there was good to compare it to.
On that note when we go through challenging and dark times all we really wish for is light. What I am coming to realize is that there i truly no way to see the light until you have explored every corner of the dark. The challenges and darkness are there and will inevitably go away once you find the light and can see the difference in the process you just went through. You've grown and you are wiser because of it.
So what does it mean to explore the darkside? Do we interact with it, do we wade through it feeling our way around the pain, or do we observe and explore it with a sense of detachment and total appreciation for its value? I suppose the latter is the way to best make use of our time exploring the darkside but detachment entails being able to live and be compassion. We have to be able to see things we do not like without feeling the need to relieve it. We have to understand its happening as it should and has a purpose. If we interact with it we have added dimensions and karma and prolonged the process, but if we observe it from compassionate detached place we have better chances of leaving the journey feelings a sense of enlightenment.
How do we walk through the darkside detached when we are empathic humans and we feel everything. No one said walking through the darkside would be painless or easy. We have to learn to process what we see and feel then let it go. It was something we observed it did not have to be something we permanently took on.
In my own life at this moment I am clearly exploring the darkness but I am not having much luck remaining detached. I have been finding myself interacting and adding to the problem as opposed to allowing the darkness to do its job and letting go at the end of the day. I believe my problem with this is that I am raising a child I adopted and promised to provide a healthier environment than she started off in life and here I am watching as things out of my control are happening. As I walk through the darkside I see sides of my child unfold that would never be there if I had not let certain things transpire yet truly it was all going to happen one way or another and truly is out of my control. I have come to believe I am writing this post to help remind me that as I explore the darkside in life at this time I need to allow and let go. This does not mean that I do not support or be responsible, but it does mean that when my child turns into the devil because she knows no other way to express how she is feeling I need to "ALLOW HER TO MISBEHAVE" and stay firm in my discipline and always hug her in the end.
The darkside sure is ugly but in the end both myself and my daughter will be shinning bright. I need to stay out of karmas way and assist in life and not necessarily interact with it.
If you are reflecting on your journey through the darkside right now and I can share one piece of advice I will say this, "This too shall pass". It always does.
Thursday, April 9, 2015
The movie Lucy was the perfect "How to understand existence for dummies" movie yet some still missed the point. In short Lucy was able to use enough of her brain to defy all logic as our 10% brain usage can understand. Once she was able to use enough of her brain she suddenly realized all things that make us human are gone and her knowledge was all that exists. What some people missed in that statement is that what makes us human is not who we are. Who we are is "everything" and we are "everywhere". Who we know humans to be is so minuet we might as well be a spec of dust on a fleas wing. One thing Lucy does understand and tries to bring to light is that even though we do not use all our brain there still is purpose. Everything still is working exactly as it should be its just at this point and time in existence our human brains are waking up and because our communication among one another is sped up to lightening speed more information can be shared, expressed, and relayed quicker than any other time in history. Therefore we are right on target in the circle and cycle of human evolution. As in the movie you see where it begins and where it ends is one and the same...that is because existence, just as the air we breath, is always there. If you can imagine that we are everything and everywhere when would we not exist? Time, as the movie helps us understand, truly is the only form of measurement and with out it we do not exist in the literal, or physical sense. We make time therefore we create physical existence. Once we can stop time, once we evolve past using time as a form of measurement, only then have we left the physical world. This helps us understand physical death. Lucy states in the movie "we never really die". The physical self has let go of measuring time and their for has no need to physically exist but they are one and the same....they too are everything and everywhere all the time. This is what it means when it is said "i will always be with you" when someone passes. They, we, can not be separate of one another, we only see separation with the small percent of our mind we use but in reality we are all one and the same. We are "God" we are "the divine" we are "the universe". When you break it down as the movie did its easier to understand the cycle of human evolution and existence. There are still many things our minds can not comprehend because we are still thinking in a 3D perspective but once our society evolves more many of our questions we have can be answered because we will be using more of our brain. So do evolution a favor and wake up. Use more of your brain. Think, express, communicate, grow, and evolve. Do not get me wrong you do not need to be perfection you just need to be willing to look at life with more of an open heart and mind. Merely opening your heart and mind just a little more than it already is is enough to move human evolution along.
Monday, March 16, 2015
....all you have to do is listen, watch, and feel. It is very easy to read people and no special psychic abilities are needed all you need is a clear observant mind that is free from judgement. Judgement can taint your perception and easily cause you to misread someone. If you have the true desire to be able to read people you may need to begin by becoming a people watcher. Sit, watch, and don't say a word. Peoples actions speak extremely loud. Body language can easily give away a persons mood and if you look at where you are what they are you can begin to start to put a story together. Of course you can never truly know unless you ask the person or if you knew them fairly well...but the more practice you have the easier it gets. I personally use it as part of my social game when I am out interacting with people I never met. I make it fun and I look them over and start to read them. I ask them a few simple yes or no questions to help my reasoning and then BAM! they are chit chatting away with me about their life. People love to talk about themselves so if you ever want to win brownie points just get people talking. Have you ever watch the tv series Elementary. How do you think he so quickly picks up on what is really happening? He is extremely observant, borderline autism I would say, but he really zeros in on what he sees and begins to piece things together. So let's make this a fun challenge. Start doing some people watching, not stalking, but just casual observing and begin to get a feel for reading people. Then one night when you are sitting around with friends and mingling with people you haven't met yet ask them if you can try reading them. You can make it fun and hold their hands...this will give them the impression your psychic or something...and then start observing their body language. think back on some thing you heard them talking about, consider their age and gender, and try and see if you can tell them things about themselves they haven't made known to a lot of people. If you know anything about astrology you can through that in too. If you know their sign you have a lot of basic traits that can help you zero in on some personal characteristics. Finally feel them out. Is their tone edgy, are they irritated with you and this is not fun for them, hmmm maybe they are cynics....are the smiling ear to ear and when they talk you feel cozy inside...hmmm maybe they are naturally nurturing people...use all your senses and before you know it you'll even amaze yourselves. Think about it this way, psychics are merely sensitives with heightened senses, if you begin to use your senses maybe you are becoming psychic? Maybe the label "psychic" is just a label for fine tuning our senses and getting in touch with all things around us. Maybe the way we look at the label of one who is psychic will begin to change because suddenly we understand everything is easy to understand when we tune into another using all our senses simultaneously. Maybe we are something we never imagined ourselves to really be but have always known we are...maybe you will suddenly....wake up.
Sunday, March 15, 2015
In life people often find themselves offended by what others say or do because they "think" the other person is trying to hurt them, but in reality the situation is touching a sensitive point or insecurity they have within and they interpret it completely different than intended. At times they become even more angry when the other person does not own up or take responsibility for their actions towards them or others when really they are absolutely not responsible for how other people feel if their intent was the opposite. If you are the person who is getting the finger pointed at and you did not do anything to deserve the negative feedback then do not allow it to bother you it is the other persons problem not yours. The same goes when someone does not like you. You have no control over how the other person feels and whatever their problem is is strictly their problem. They win when you allow it to effect you. If you can turn the cheek and let it go then eventually the energy will dissipate and the situation changes as a whole. The basis of this post is to help awaken people to how our own insecurities, fears, and pains are often triggered unconsciously by the assumed actions of others. We need to become aware of "actual" intend and not "assumed" intent. If you do not know the difference in a particular situation you have a choice....talk to the person about it or let it go. If you hold onto it you will gain nothing but angst from the situation. It's important to be in touch with your inner emotions, know your pains and fear, and be aware of their triggers. If you sweep these things under the carpet or do not become conscious of who you truly are, you will continue to live in survivor mode and not grow as a person.
Become aware of who you are so you can better understand and hear the clear intent of others. If you can recognize when someone is merely triggering and insecurity and when they are truly intending to hurt you, you have achieved success in self awareness!